Going to Extremes

I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. It seems that most of my goals for the year have already gone out the window, and I just haven’t been the person that I want to be. I think part of it has to do with all of the snow days we’ve had lately, but I think it also runs deeper than that. That’s just something that I’ll have to work on with God. However, I do have an idea of what I want my life to look like and what I think it’s supposed look like:

I want to have quiet time with God every day, no matter what. I want to spend time reading the Bible everyday. I want to be a morning person. I want to serve more. I want to eat healthy. I want to cook dinner for myself. I want to work out 4-5 days per week. I want to keep my house clean and my laundry caught up. I want to be more productive. I want to spend regular time reading, crocheting, and doing other things I love. I want to have stronger friendships. I want to be well-rounded. And most of all, I just want to be able to take care of myself.

I’m just not sure I know how to do any of this, let alone be able to do all of it at the same time. I think part of the reason is that I have a tendency to be very extreme; it’s very hard for me to do things in moderation. I’m not sure why this is. Alcoholism runs in my family so maybe it’s part genetics; maybe I was just born predisposed to have an addictive personality. Regardless of that, I believe God can help me learn to live differently. I think it’s just going to take a lot of prayer and a lot of baby steps. But most of all, it’s going to take a daily commitment to allow God to transform me and my life.